What do you do when you know you want to go away for a long time but you have a boyfriend who you know you need some time away from but you feel guilty about leaving? Especially when you are going away someplace where you will be living with someone who you know you have some special feelings for? God I'm at a difficult point in my life. I don't even know how to handle my own emotions or my own situations. Okay, I can't write any more about this, it's just too hard and frankly I'm kind of tired of sharing my business with so many people who I don't know and who don't really care about my life anyway.